Saturday, April 3, 2010 @ 12:43 AM
i don't get why life has to be like that. why am i thinking so much. it doesnt make sense at all. putting the pieces together, finding that all these stuff might just be true. why is this happening all over again. i thought i was over all this crap already. now i realise i have not forgotten anything. even though each time i hoped i'd never feel this way again.
i'm nobody. nobody cares. you get ditched, you find me huh. then ditch me. thats what everybody does. why is life like this. this whole process applies everywhere. no matter where i am. its the same. i don't get why i'm like this. i never cared. i thought i never would. now im so frustrated.
why is this happening all over again! is it cause i dont trust anyone. as a matter of fact, i lost all my trust because of all of you. i didnt want to feel this way again. it hurt. alot. every small little thing reminded me of how terrible the feeling was. and i started thinking, again. and again.
i tried my best to be nice. i tried my best, really. i really hoped i wouldnt feel so left out at any point of time, anywhere. i tried to help you in any way you needed. but looks like it didnt help much. i should stop ranting now. it won't help anyway.
now that it's all said and done,
i can't believe you were the one
to build me up and tear me down,
like an old abandoned house.